Whens my turn?

It seems we spend years trying to avoid pregnancy and then when we go looking for it, it avoids us.

Just went onto Facebook to see what my friends are up and was bombarded with baby photos, while i'm extremely jealous I am happy for them, even those who didnt plan their baby, seems a little unfair.

Husband has got a Urinary Tract Infection, so I guess baby making is off for a while till he gets it sorted out....and as a typical man, he is refusing to go the doctor, he read on google that all he needs is lots of water and cranberry juice.

Its hard to stay positive. I tried to resist, but wasn't strong enough, I ended up in Mothercare, saw the most amazing cot, and as luck would have it, it was the last one, and marked down. Not meant to be just yet.

I've had another look at those TTC websites, they really depressing. Think I should start doing this another way, look at websites aimed at teenagers where they say things like "you can fall pregnant at any time", "It will happen to you if you dont play it safe".


I won a Willvin changing bag a few weeks, its lying in the corner of our bedroom, a constant reminder. I think it might be time to back it away for a while

Tempting Fate

In an effort to tempt fate, I decorated the spare room......but not as a nursery, as a home office. Dont know why I didnt do it before, it was such a wasted space.

The 2ww (2 week wait) is nearly over.

BFN

I took the test, it was a Big Fat Negative......cant beleive I'm learning the lingo.......not to shocked it was negative though, I took it at least a week to early. Be honest.....you've done it as well.

The BIG mistake

I made a huge mistake today.....I googled "trying for a baby", and any woman who has ever done that, will understand what a minefield it is. There are woman out there who are so obsessed with trying that they've come up with their own secret language:

They aren't trying for a baby, they are ttc(trying to conceive)
It isn't a husband, its a DH(dearest husband)
Its not a period, its AF(Aunt Flo)

There are Internet forums where woman scrutinise every thing, and to be honest, I almost fell into the trap. I was feeling a little sleepy a few days ago, googled "fatigue in early pregnancy", they almost convinced me I was pregnant. Then, I kid you not(damn, I'm as bad as "THEM") I had an outbreak of pimples, so I headed to trusty google "pimples in early pregnancy" and sure enough, you get them. I had a bout of hiccoughs, and yet again google pointed me in the direction of it being an early pregnancy sign..........It all got a bit much, so I started googling the opposites of "symptoms", and I came up with positive results.

In conclusion, its normal to feel fatigued, yet its also normal to suffer from insomnia. Its normal to get morning sickness, but some woman don't get it. Some woman get pimples, some woman don't. Sometimes feeling bloated can be read as an early pregnancy sign, yet, its also a sign of your menstruation, oh excuse me, its a sign AF is on her way. Read an interesting comment that the body prepares itself for pregnancy after ovulation anyway, so most woman experience "pregnancy symptoms" every month.....we just call it PMS. So I'm none the wiser to what is actually a hard and fast sign. In our early twenties, when we had the scare, we'd take comfort in PMS symptoms, and here years later, we interpret those same signals as a possible pregnancy. Besides a late period, I don't think there are any other symptoms of pregnancy, its all in our heads.

Its a realisation that has brought much comfort to me, I can stop analysing everything my body does, the only signs I'm looking for are a late period and a positive test, or sorry, make that a BFP(Big Fat Positive).

I'm really hoping it doesn't take to long for husband DH
and I to fall pregant, because honestly I'm not looking forward to getting a CB(Cycle Buddy).

I couldnt resist

I bought a test today......a few more days and I can take it.